I am always grateful for time with my daughter at family weekend. I enjoy her company as much as enjoy my son’s company. Or my sister’s, or niece’s. I enjoy seeing my daughter in person, watching her talk, using her hands and face for additional expression. She is so very animated.
The difference with visits with my daughter, compared to those other relatives is this: With my other relatives, I do not have to be on guard….on guard for sudden mood shifts, anger, or violent outbursts.
The vigilance required of me at these family weekends is exhausting, even when she doesn’t spend the night at the hotel with me. I don’t know how I managed that constant , high level of vigilance when my daughter was at home. I did it, but I honestly don’t know how.
I am very grateful to her day-to-day caregivers and the agency staff at our family weekends.