Yes, I know how to spell ‘heartbreak.’ This post is about something else. It’s about holding back.
I love my kids without reservation. I love them as fully as I can. I don’t consider whether or not they will break my heart (I’m quite sure they will), I just love them.
I realized last week (yes, just last week) that I was not loving someone else nearly as well. I had set a ‘heartbrake’ – a self-protective limit on our relationship.
I’m not saying it is a bad thing to protect myself or set boundaries; but I am very surprised that I set the limit so automatically, so absent-mindedly. I was truly unaware that I had set it.
I was pulling on the handbrake and pressing the accelerator at the same time. That’s no way to move forward – it’s a wreck. And that’s no way to treat someone for whom you care.
If I can’t move forward, I need to park and walk away.